I have been a worry-wart lately. I have been worrying about something specific and, more recently, something very dear to my heart…something i dont feel like sharing just yet.
I was taking down my Thanksgiving decorations at work on friday. I was minding my own business, thinking my own thoughts, humming a tune in my heart; when all of a sudden gripping fear, anxiety and frustration shook my innermost being in relation to this thing that is so dear to me.
Heart racing, room swirling, chest tightening, breath shortening, muscles tensing, fear… gripping my neck. Hopelessness consuming me over this…thing.
Abba Father…help. What is truth? lies are consuming me….
It comes down to two things, My Daughter: Do you believe I AM sovereign? Do you believe I act only out of love?
Perhaps one day i will share what this thing is that the enemy so enthusiastically wants to attack and cause fear towards. As for now, all i can do is trust in Gods sovereignty and love.