ColleensLife

I sent my Holistic Doctor an email telling her that im super skeptical about her methods of Holistic Healing, but I also told her im desperate so im willing to come with an open mind.    She responded to me with this:

Hi Colleen,
I’m sorry to hear you have been dealing with UTI’s since December. There are things we can do and in most cases they clear up. One of my clients had UTI’s for 10 years and that whole time was on high amounts of antibiotics and we were able to clear it in 1 week. In the past 4 years she has only had 1 or 2 reoccurances. She later told me that if she knew what I did before she came, she never would’ve come. However, now I am her whole family’s “primary doctor”. So I can definitely understand people’s skepticism.

This gives me hope.  Hope that the problem will be solved.  Hope that the pain will go away.  Hope that i can stop using all my days off at the doctors.  Hope.

medicine?

What to do?   Ive been in slight to severe pain since last december caused by a reoccurring UTI.  I recently saw a urologist who told me (while i was in extreme pain mind you) to “stop taking antibiotics!  Your killing your good bacteria.”

me- “but im in servere pain right now.”

Doc- “There is no sign of any infections what-so-ever.”

me- “what do i do?”

Doc- “take some probiotics and these pills (handing me pills).  THey will make your urine blue and should ease the pain.”

They do turn my pee blue!  And give me diarrhea.  But, my pain is mostly gone for now….i think.  I mean, im kinda getting used to the pain.  Sometimes i forget that i have pain unless i think about it.  Ive just simply gotten used to it.    But ive realized, i am not supposed to get used to the pain.  Pain is our bodies way of telling us something is wrong, be it physical, emotional, or mental.   We aren’t supposed to live with pain for long periods of time.

Last week, a friend of mine messaged me and said ,”I feel like God has asked me to reach out to you.  I told Him, ‘I dont have anything to offer colleen.’  But God said, ‘ just do what i am asking.’”  We got together this past sunday.

Turns out my friend had been fighting UTIs and kidney infections for 7 years (along with migraines her whole life).  She saw every doctor under the sun to get answers.  She also had been hospitalized twice because of her UTIs.  Docs kept finding blood in her urine but kept telling her “nothing is wrong, we cant find any infection.”  She became desperate and did what she never thought she would do – see a holistic doctor.  The H.D. found some mold and whatnot in her body, treated her, and she has been free of UTIs AND migraines ever since.

This friend, who God told to “reach out to me,”  heard Him say that BEFORE  she read my blog about my UTIs.  Kinda neat.

So, thats what im doing on tuesday.  My husband and i are going to see a holistic doctor to see if maybe there is something going on in my body that doctors aren’t looking for.  Mold? Fungus? other spores unheard of? Spare me the comments about holistic medicine being “whacky” and/or “inconsistent.”  Believe me, i know.  Ive read it all.   Am i skeptical?  yes!  But im desperate.  And my desperation is trumping my skepticism.  The doctors keep telling me “nothing is wrong”  but i know that there is.    Besides, after i met with my friend, i decided to pray about seeing a Holistic Doctor.  I felt like God said, “If you are skeptical – test it.”

So that is exactly what im going to do.

I started having extreme pain again last night.  Ive only been off my antibiotics for 2 days.  Last night, this morning and currently have been very difficult.  This morning I said a quick prayer in tears on the way to church

Me- Jesus, i need you.  The pain is unbearable.  I need to hear from you today – to know you are still in this.  I trust you and love you.  I choose not to get mad at YOU for this. What i am experiencing is nothing compared to what you experienced on the Cross.  Please, draw near to me and help me to rely on you in this confusing time.

God- (nod)  hes been doing that lately to me.  Weird, i know.

I got to church and worshiped through pain-filled tears.  Worshiping God in pain is….interesting.  Two dear friends surrounded me and prayed for me.  Then the pastor stopped the service and said that, this week, they felt God say that many people are facing medical problems that arent being fixed and to have those people be prayed for at church today.  To my knowledge we have never done anything like this at church- not for medical issues at least.   So i went forward.  Though i was eager for prayer and wanted healing, i felt God say, “Yes, get prayed for, but remember, i want you to go through this process (of finding out what is wrong with me).  It is good.”

The whole worship service was about Gods healing, sovereignty, and that He holds our life in His hands.  The whole service also seemed to center around us acknowledging our trust in God and His sovereignty. This service was like a big hug from God to me.

Do i dare think that God formed this prayer time at church just for me?  Na, there were about 20 people who went up front for prayer too.  But it wouldn’t shock me to find out that I was on Gods mind when this sunday was being created.

i called my Doc today.  He called me in another prescription because the pain is just….*sigh*.  I see a Specialist tomorrow.